I wanted to take a few minutes and recognize friends who have been trying to connect with me here lately. Please don’t take my lack of response personally. I’m not mad at you, or not wanting to see you.
I have been on a very dark rollercoaster ride, and recently I decided it was time to climb out and find the light. I have been doing a lot of inward focusing lately trying to get myself back on track mentally and physically. This last two years has all but destroyed me. The self defeating attitude I fell into has met its match Friday Morning when I met with my new mental health care team. The pity party ends now. There is no shame in acknowledging when you can’t pull yourself back up and that something inside you has popped a spring and lost momentum.
I am done trying to please others or conforming to what others think I should do. I spent way too much of my life adapting to others to maintain their happiness and well-being at the costs of my own. This weekend begins a new start for me, slow as it may be, the race is over and I’m driving now. I know you all have heard this from me before, but I have backup now, and new resources at my disposal that I didn’t have or acknowledge previously. Some of you here on Facebook new friends and old helped to reignite me by assuring me sometimes you just got to get help (you all know who you are) just know I am very happy and honored to have your support.
As for why I have been not returning messages. I can’t be