Health & Depression

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It’s not hard to tell that I have been struggling lately.  Sorting through a combination of medical ailments, and a raging case of depression had me in a slump I just could not dig out of.  Fortunately, I seem to be feeling a little better overall.  I have had to adjust my perspectives on things a bit and come to some hard choices and realizations.  The first realization is I have been trying to spread myself too thin.  I am not a creature apparently that works well on a schedule.

This being realized I am going to disband the Hoffy’s Workshop Show and return to an on the fly as things are happening video style.  If you are contributing to the Hoffy’s workshop show Patreon, I encourage you to redirect your funding to the Hoffy’s World Website as all my activities will once again be based there.    I just can’t keep up with building a production such as that show. Now with the recent changes to YouTube it just does not suit me the benefit of the frustration I have been dealing with.  I figured if I’m not finding total joy out of doing and it feels too much like work then I’m going in the wrong direction.

I’m getting ready to start-up my work on my railroad again.  I am finding I have a few extra dollars now I could redirect to that endeavor.  I have to say I appreciate the outpour of support and encouragement I have received over the last few months from several of my cyberspace friends.  I know I have not been much for communication or taking you all up on the various offers to help me, but just know I appreciate it.  It has been a very dark journey I have been on, now that I’m seeing the light of my singularity I am growing my fire to get frisky in the workshop again.  I am hoping to start-up writing on a regular basis again as well.

I can not believe how suddenly I let things fall silent again.  But, that’s what depression does to you I suppose.  I lost all ambition to do anything but sleep and eat.  The cold weather being my nemesis definitely has not been a help to this.

Now call me a wuss if you choose, but one of the biggest battles I have been contending with has been heartbreak.  This has manifested in many ways over the last two years.  It has also turned my whole school of thought upside down.  I have come to the conclusion that I have a unique and very old fashion view on certain things.  This, unfortunately, does not click very well in the modern world today.  Figuring this out I have decided to love the most important people.  My family, My Son, and most of all Myself.  I no longer have time for selfish people, If someone else drifts into my world in the process then that will be a matter to ponder then.  I’m not going out of my way any longer to find them.

But overall, and now that I let that loose through the keyboard, I feel pretty good about myself now.  Hopefully God willing I will have some neat stuff flowing soon.

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