It’s not hard to tell that I have been struggling lately. Sorting through a combination of medical ailments, and a raging case of depression had me in a slump I just could not dig out of. Fortunately, I seem to be feeling a little better overall. I have had to adjust my perspectives on things a bit and come to some hard choices and realizations. The first realization is I have been trying to spread myself too thin. I am not a creature apparently that works well on a schedule.
This being realized I am going to disband the Hoffy’s Workshop Show and return to an on the fly as things are happening video style. If you are contributing to the Hoffy’s workshop show Patreon, I encourage you to redirect your funding to the Hoffy’s World Website as all my activities will once again be based there. I just can’t keep up with building a production such as that show. Now with the recent changes to YouTube it just does not suit me the benefit of the frustration I have been dealing with. I figured if I’m not finding total joy out of doing and it feels too much like work then I’m going in the wrong direction.
I’m getting ready to start-up my work on my railroad again. I am finding I have a few extra dollars now I could redirect to that endeavor. I have to say I appreciate the outpour of support and encouragement I have received over the last few months from several of my cyberspace friends. I know I have not been much for communication or taking you all up on the various offers to help me, but just know I appreciate it. It has been a very dark journey I have been on, now that I’m seeing the light of my singularity I am growing my fire to get frisky in the workshop again. I am hoping to start-up writing on a regular basis again as well.
I can not believe how suddenly I let things fall silent again. But, that’s what depression does to you I suppose. I lost all ambition to do anything but sleep and eat. The cold weather being my nemesis definitely has not been a help to this.
Now call me a wuss if you choose, but one of the biggest battles I have been contending with has been heartbreak. This has manifested in many ways over the last two years. It has also turned my whole school of thought upside down. I have come to the conclusion that I have a unique and very old fashion view on certain things. This, unfortunately, does not click very well in the modern world today. Figuring this out I have decided to love the most important people. My family, My Son, and most of all Myself. I no longer have time for selfish people, If someone else drifts into my world in the process then that will be a matter to ponder then. I’m not going out of my way any longer to find them.
But overall, and now that I let that loose through the keyboard, I feel pretty good about myself now. Hopefully God willing I will have some neat stuff flowing soon.